Jealousy

Im sorry :(

Somehow I feel kinda useless as your friend.

I can't even help you.

I understand how you feel.

Please don't be sad.

Please...

I beg you.

Dear God,

Why so many things happened this month?

So many heart breaking stuffs.

So many sad stuffs.

WHY?

Love,

Jason

It hurts :(

There's no need to rush.

If something that is meant to be, it will happen.

In the right time, with the right person, for the best reason.

I can't explain how I feel.

I feel so confuse.

I don't wanna be like this.

DAMN DAMN DAMN.

Maybe, I should forget and move on.

Yeah.

However, I still feel kinda awkward.

I'm just playing a fool at myself.

Love doesn't exist in my life, yet. (:

I tell loads of people that I like them.

I feel stupid before that, but then, after that..

I thought for awhile.

Why stupid?

It's good to let people know that they are loved. ♥

I know I talk random stuffs each time. HEEH.

That's why my essays can't get high marks.

I'm not organized. HAH!

See, I told you, I'm talking random craps. LOL.

Anyways, back to the topic.

I don't know what am I thinking.

DAMN.

It's not possible that the person will like me.

I know, I know.

LIKE LIKE LIKE.

I was wrong again.

This time, I really think hard.

Pssh.

Bye bye [e]you and you.

I'm gonna move on.

Leave the good/ bad memories behind. (:

It's a good idea.

Hey, you.

Save me.

I know this sounds very stupid.

But still, save me.

Could you?

Please bring me far far away from all these.

I know you won't...

I can dream, can't I?

(...)

Love,

Jason

Screwed :(

WORDS DON'T HAVE POWER TO HURT YOU,

UNLESS THE PERSON WHO SAID THEM TO YOU MEANS A LOT TO U .

I'm sorry that I emo.
I just don't know what am I thinking right now.
Maybe I shall be alone for now.
I shall smile no matter what happen in school tomorrow.

Dear God,
What is happening?
Can I not live?
Please.
I feel so lost.
I feel so hurt.
I feel so bad.
I feel so useless.

You didn't reply my message.
I saw A posted on your wall.
[the above two is damn freaking lame.]
-disappointed.
-jealousy.. Perhaps?
Somehow, I don't understand.
I don't like you,
but I mind every word you say and everything you do.
My family have some minor problems.
It is still a problem.

God,
Can I not live?
I can't seem to know why am I living.
I rather not live.
No meaning at all.
Teenagers life eh?
I wanna grow up faster.
I think when I grow up,
I'll feel stupid for writing all these.
Heehs.

I know I shouldn't talk all these.
I really can't find a REAL person to talk to.
God only can see me weep in silence.
I can only talk to him, but, no response from God.
Parents? You think they understand?
You'll end up getting lecture by them.
Close-pals?..
I don't know why I don't wanna tell them...

Oii!
I will still smile!
Maybe a little of confuse me.
I wanna sleep.
Maybe I'm just tired.

Ok, I'll stay strong.

Love, 

Jason

Hot Guy :DDD

Blog updated! the FORTH post in this new blog. Enjoy reading this post :)

Recently, i was going through google to find some hot guy's photos. Guess what i found, i found a cute guy's blog instead of pictures. LOL! And so, i clicked into it and seems like nothing attractive but i still interested of reading his blog! ( * BLUSH* ) Everything he wrote is quite long actually, so... never mind.

First thing i did during that time was searching for his cute photos, i did searched a photo of him, but i cnt see his face, WTF! Disappointed :( Can't see his face, but i still can read his post! Haha, at least i could know more bout his life...

Haha, as what i said, the longer the post, the more interested i get. :D The latest post of his blog is CRUSHES ! Something bout a crush on a Japanese guy, i think. He's quite cute, seriously. Reading his post is like there's something special bout this guy and i want to know it. :3 This guy likes VSFS too :D Don't know if he likes LADY GAGA anot. Continue reading....

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4 hours later,

Still reading....

Gosh! This guy is so hot! and he likes DUCK :D

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6.30 pm,

Pheww, finally! Finally! Finished reading :)

I spent almost half a day to read his blog,

But it worth it, coz...

Im so damn fucking love this guy!!!!!

hope to be friends with him...

Well, that's all :)

Love ya guys <3

Jason

Because of you

sometimes, i cried juz bcoz of you,
i really miss u,
i mean seriously,
you chose to leave me is bcoz of?
it's so hurtful,
i'll never forget those wonderful days with u,
always...


All i cn do is,
Well,
hope u'll have a better life in CANADA






Love,
Jason

Anyone?

anyone interested in being friends with me?
if u do,
juz leave ur name and fb down here,
i'll get to you as soon as possible <3





(Y) peace 
Love,
Jason

The First Time "

The first time, or several times, that you have a boyfriend, it can be the case that there’s an explosive release of hopes, dreams, desires and pent-up emotions. You feel you’re in love and, finally, now is your chance to join and be massively intimate with a fellow gay human being. Maybe the relationship will last a long time. Perhaps it will burn itself out in a few dizzy weeks or months. Either way, while there are no rigidly fixed rules, these are the rules.

First off, be wary of saying too soon that you are boyfriends, in a relationship and in love. Of course, you want to be and to say these things – and it might be there is an opportune time to say, ‘Are we boyfriends? I love you,’ early on – but many people find such declarations too overpowering, constricting and even threatening, if uttered too soon.

But you need to say something? Try instead: ‘I love being with you.’ ‘This is so great.’ ‘You are fit.’ Say things, in other words, which express how great you feel and how great you think this is and he is, without seeming to be making a premature claim or demand for commitment. Then see how it goes.

The sudden outpouring of feeling is, for many people, a torrent of words – opinions, lives and personal histories shared. You’ll probably find you’ve a lot in common. After all, you’re both gay and, while that doesn’t define everything about who you are, it certainly does a great deal to set the tone of your existence, your individuality. Often you can feel quite free to proceed spontaneously: talk and talk and talk. But it helps at times to remember, just in case you’ve forgotten, to ask a few careful questions – and listen.

And then there are texts and ubiquitous mobile phones, which it is possible to use to sustain and develop a relationship or to cut it apart at first base. Resist the dreadful urge to text too much. Don’t feel you must call all the time. Relationships need space to grow. You’ll become too familiar, too ‘already had’ by him – and a bit of a bore.

Try leaving a day between calls. Take the calls and the texts in turn, rather than you being the one to contact him all the time – not least because that sets up a bad pattern. It can feel terribly hard to do this but is almost invariably the best thing to do. Perhaps it is the case that we must feel we are in control and are making an effort with the other person if we are to love – and that cuts both ways.
At risk of touting doom and gloom, it has to be said that the initial excitement of a new relationship doesn’t tend to last. The first ‘love buzz’ fades as relationships mature. One text book explanation of why this is so is that a chemical called Phenylethylamine (PEA), an amphetamine-related, naturally occurring ‘drug’, inducing a level of euphoria, together with obsession, and blinding us to the faults of our loved one, is secreted at high levels at first before production fails at the same time as the body becomes used to it. The buzz fades – and while other, ‘bonding’ hormones (endorphins) will be ready to take its place, the two partners will need to like each other as they really are at this point.

Perhaps it is also because we want and hope for – and need – so much and few real people could live up to those requirements. Perhaps it’s because the looks and the sex and the shared scene location are initially of most importance, whereas love grows slowly, with genuine affection, between two mutually known personalities. Perhaps it’s just because we’re young and there’s so much else on offer.

To give love its best chance, you’ll need to become not merely lovers but close, close friends. That takes time – and work. There is trust to be earned and care to be shown and taken over time. Think about how you share other people’s lives and how you share yours with other people. Think about what you do for him and what to let him do for you.

And finally, don’t be too upset if the relationship slips back from a ‘boyfriends’ footing. It’s the old cliché, ‘Well, let’s still be friends,’ but it is important to say it – and then be it. Local scenes, even in major cities, are very small places. Avoid acrimonious partings at all costs.

Good luck!

The Beginning

Well, this is the first post ,

so, nothing much,

i juz hope tat u guys will give me supports and i hope tat we could be friends :)

that's all :DDD

LOL!

Love,

Jason