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Sunday 25 December 2011

Merry Christmas !!!

Merry Christmas everyon3 :D
Wish you all have a good time with your family and your hubby :)
And a Happy New Year too !!!
Im still waiting for Santa :(
No presents for me :P 
Lonely Christmas :(


















Till then,
Love,
Jason

Monday 19 December 2011

I hate you !

My problem is that I can't stay mad. I always end up forgiving people even if they don't deserve it.


________________________________________



That's all for our relationship .
Are you happy now? :(
A week of relationship. 
And now we broke up. (WTF?!)
Hey you! Shut the FUCK up.
We broke up becoz u're too useless in doing anything? 
I dun mind how u look like,
I dun mind how u act like,
I DUN MIND!!
Get it? :(
So disappointed with you .
I hate you!!
You hurt me badly,
You said that you won't hurt me no matter what happens,
Did you do what u've said? 
Shouldn't trust you in the first place.
I lost too many things in one day..
I lost a friend,
I lost a boy friend,
I lost a phone,
Im so unlucky.
Hate myself ! Feel like jumping down from the roof top of an apartment.
I HATE YOU!  






*picture removed *

There's something behind my smile.
I'm pretending to smile that i've been forced to do that.
Never happy :( Never will .












Love,
Jason

Sunday 18 December 2011

unhappy :(

I try to ignore you so I don't fall for you again, but then you smile and those feelings come flooding back.


____________________________




Im so sorry,
I regretted bout wat i've did.
Can you forgive me?
PLease? :(
I need you back ..
As a friend.



______________________________




Went to mid valley with friends 
But im not happy :(
You could see that right through my pic :(




*picture removed*

Never happy until you forgive me :(






Love,
Jason

The END !

Unfriend-ing you are the only way i have.
I was at your profile for an hour,
I'm thinking that should i remove u from my friend's list?
I'm so confused!
Saw your post on FB,
Im surprise with people's ability to notice when someone removes them from their friendslist..
It's okay,
Can't you just tell me that?
I don't like people removing you without any reasons,
Leason learnt,
Never treat people kindly. :(






Love,
Jason 

Saturday 17 December 2011

What doesn't kill you



Love this song damn much :)
Love you hubby :D
Kelly Clarkson- what doesn't kill you 



* Picture removed *


So random :)



Love,
Jason

Friday 16 December 2011

Marry the night


Love you GAGA ! 







Love,
Jason

HOO HOO !

Went to a photo shoot today,
It's kindda fun :D 
I had make-ups on my face ( LOL! being forced to do that )
I wore contact lenses,
I like the new me :) ( PERASAN >< )


*Picture removed *


Nice ? >< 


Till then,
Love,
Jason

I promise

The worst feeling is when you pretend you don’t care about something, when really it’s all you seem to think about.


_____________________________







Christmas is coming soon,
I said that i don't mind bout wat will you give to me,
But eventually,
I do really care bout ur present.
What i said was fake,
I pretended to be strong,
Actually im very weak,
I pretended to be positive,
Actually i have negative thoughts.
I don't want you to know the other side of me,
I want to keep it as a secret of my own .
But i never meant to hurt you,
I know it's time that i learned to,
Treat the people i love like i wanna be loved,
I hate that i let you down,
And i felt so bad about it,
I guess karma comes back around,
Cause now im the one that's hurting. Yeap :(
If i could turn back the hands of time,
I swear i never would've crossed that line,
I should of kept it between us,
But no,
I went and told the whole world how i feel.
So i sit and i realize,
With these tears falling from my eyes,
I gotta change if i wanna keep u forever,
I promise.








Love,
Jason

Wednesday 14 December 2011

Should i?

Im so sad now,
Should i open to everyone that im GAY?
I scared that i'll loose all my friends if i tell them this huge secret of my life...
One of my friend adi noe this secret i think,
What if she tells everyone?
Then what will happen to me after that?
Should i tell or not?
Ahhhhhh!!
Next time i better delete all my messages in case anything happens again. :(









Love,
Jason

Monday 12 December 2011

Chatime vs Gong Cha

CHATIME VS GONG CHA 

WaSai, two best bubble tea outlet in MALAYSIA ♥ 
How to choose orh?  (LOL?)
Let's see then :)




CHATIME 





GONG CHA 


Well, i am CHATIME's fans actually >< 
So not fair for me to choose CHATIME as a winner rite? :D
Then you decide lo :)
Write your comments down and i'll get to you soon 




CHATIME outlet 




GONG CHA outlet 


For me,
Gong cha also very nice lah >< 
Same as CHATIME (LOL!)
Aiyar.. Both oso win lah :D


CHATIME
I  GONG CHA 
BUBBLE TEA




Love,
Jason

Friends?

There are two sides to every story. 

:)
___________________________________________________






We're friends again? 
Perhaps u're still not believe in our friendship huh?
You added me back on Facebook,
What if you remove it again?
Then what should i do again?..
Called you last night,
You're so cute on the phone *BLUSH*
The way you speak chinese to me are so cute (OMG)
Just kidding lah,
Dun be so serious ( LOL?)
__________________________


Do you agree that how a guy sounds like depends on how he looks like?
I agree lo...
Haha :D
So that's all,
Smile always ya :)




OMFG! I   You CHATIME !
So Random :)






Love,
Jason

Set the fir3

Set fire to the rain ,
Let it shines :)

_______________________________


I let it fall, my heart,

And as it fell you rose to claim it
It was dark and I was over
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me

My hands, they're strong
But my knees were far too weak
To stand in your arms
Without falling to your feet

But there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew.
All the things you'd say
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.

But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

When I lay with you
I could stay there
Close my eyes
Feel you here forever
You and me together
Nothing gets better

Sometimes I wake up by the door,
That heart you caught must be waiting for you
Even now when we're already over
I can't help myself from looking for you.




Love,
Jason

Sunday 11 December 2011

Trust me

It's hard to trust another person after you've been betrayed by the one you trusted the most. :(

___________________________


That's what you told me.
Not to trust anyone.
Recovering from the pain. 
Forget bout the past.
But,
You're just lying!
You know you could forget bout him,
But you're afraid,
I could read through your mind bro,
You know that you still love him,
Then why you just let him to leave you?
You said that you wanna go to aussie next year,
Wat bout him? 
You should not go to aussie as u have the most important person by your side,
I know tat i should not be bothering bout ur problems,
But im doing the part of a friend's job ,
I know we're not friends anymore,
But you're still my good friend deep in my heart.
I wrote bout you is becoz i care bout you,
As in friend,
I dun wan you to live in the pain and be emo all the time,
You said that you're lonely,
Then why don't you let me to be your friend?

That's all i could say. Text me if you saw this post. :)





Till then,
Love,
Jason

I'm so sorry

Things might not be as what you've expected. ;)

________________________




I woke up around 1.30 pm today. I switched on my phone and i saw ur message, 
" Hey, dont take this personally but i've deleted all the plu's except a few close friends from facebook. I just need to clear my mind for a while..." im shocked that time. Im speechless. And i replied: " you removed me from facebook?" Feel like crying that time.. coz i dunno why u nid to unfriend me. I tot that  i did smth bad and made u hate me adi. It's so unlucky when u receive smth bad when u juz woke up .
Over it.


I know im not that important to you but at least we could be friends? I know i cnt add u in facebook adi, so i think that's the end for our friendship. Gud luck my bro.. RMB ya smile always :) 
Hope u're reading this ... :) 










Love,
Jason

I got you

You're gonna have the worst before you can have the best.

Life is a sketch,you need to add the colors to it.

Like a slingshot. When you pull me down, I'm always going to shoot back up.

Everyone has someone in their life that keeps them looking forward to the next day.

__________________________________


When i looked back to my life,
It's not that i don't want to see things exactly as they happened,
It's just that i prefer to remember them in an artistic way, 
And truthfully,
Life is all much honest because i invented it.
As i hold back,
I could see things much clearer,
I could see how much u love me.

As you walked into my world,
Everything in my heart changed because of you,
As in something good.
I won't open the door in my heart to let u leave me,
Never will.
Don't be afraid of being lonely,
Because i'll be with you no matter where u go,
Always be.

                                                                      Random <3

U will never know how blue is the sky if u don't even have a look at it,
Same goes to love,
U will never know how long it takes to love a person if you never try it before.
I miss you. My baby. My sweetheart. My lao gong.



It's for you :) I got YOU. Dun worry :)






Love,
Jason

Tuesday 6 December 2011

No more!

NO MORE emo anymore ! 
Yeap, NO MORE! 
Gonna change! 
CHANGE!!!!!
Haha,
Hope so lah :)






Till then,
Love,
Jason

Words that can tell lies ...

You're so sweet,
You're so cute,
You're so kind,
You're so handsome,
You're so cool,
You're so perfect,
You're so fabulous! 


There's a tons of words that i could use to describe you,
But the only thing i don't know bout you is,
your HEART...  <3 


I can't truly sure that you love me that much,
I can't truly sure that if you're really in love with me,
People said that my blog sounds emo,
The main reason is YOU,
You're the one who let me make my blog sounds emo...
I'll try and try to not think bout you when i'm sad,
Cause i don't want you to know how sad i am, 
And i don't want you to worry bout me,
I need to stand by my own without depending on other people,
But, although i tried to, 
But, it just won't work,
Because my heart has been stolen by you,
And i can't take it back as i'm already in love with you,
Really really in love with you... :)
It's not that i don't love you,
It's just that i'm scared,
I scared you'll leave me,
I don't want those things happen to me anymore! 
NO MORE !


Emo is like what i'm born to be like ,
Nothing's gonna change,
Unless,
A kiss from you will bring the story to a whole new chapter...


Love you. 
My Bestest Lao Gong ever <3 
What i wrote above is not writing bout u ya,
Some lah haha :)
You know which part is writing bout you rite?
Hope you do :DDD










Love,
Jason

Monday 5 December 2011

lov3 me

Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass , it's about learning to dance in the 

rain . ;) 






Love me like an angel :)

Hold me like a pillow :D

Sleep with me like a couple :P

Hug me like a teddy bear :)




Love, 

Jason

Heartbeat

Regular heartbeat : /\_/\_/\_/\_/\_/\_

When i'm with you : /\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\

When i lost you : /\_______________

:)







Just can't live a single day without you,


I want you badly,


Do not leave me as u promised :)




Love,


Jason

My love for you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you :)






I love you like a love song baby!
Since the day we met,
I knew u're a nice guy,
And now our relationship are good,
So awsome!
Can't wait to see you face,
Just the way you are! 
When i see your face,
The smile of you will never change,
Cause you're amazing,
Just the way you are :)


When i text you,
You're so sweet and nice to me :D
Waiting for this friday to meet you :)
Can't wait anymore,
If i say i want your body now,
Would you hold it against me? ^^
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky like a shooting star,
I need wish right now, wish right now..






Need you right now, to hold on to :)






Till then,
Love,
Jason

Someone like you :)

Behind my smile is a hurting heart. Behind my laughs, I'm falling apart. Look at 

me closely and you will see, the guy I am just isn't me. 











Sky is crying, 
Now i'm watching,
Catching teardrops in my hand,
But i have to,
Make me feel like ,
There's nothing left for me,
U can take everything i have,
To fulfill your destiny,
You can take everything i have,
To make your life better.


That's not the end for me,
I'll find someone like you,
To cover the pain you gave to me ,
It's not you fault,
It's just that i'm not good enough for you,
Can i take it all over again?
To prove to you that i've changed? 
No matter what i do,
Life still goes on,
Never stops.




Until i met someone like you....






Love,
Jason

Sunday 27 November 2011

Jealousy


Im sorry :(


Somehow I feel kinda useless as your friend.
I can't even help you.
I understand how you feel.
Please don't be sad.
Please...
I beg you.

Dear God,
Why so many things happened this month?
So many heart breaking stuffs.
So many sad stuffs.
WHY?

Love,
Jason

It hurts :(

There's no need to rush.
If something that is meant to be, it will happen.
In the right time, with the right person, for the best reason.



I can't explain how I feel.
I feel so confuse.
I don't wanna be like this.
DAMN DAMN DAMN.
Maybe, I should forget and move on.
Yeah.
However, I still feel kinda awkward.
I'm just playing a fool at myself.
Love doesn't exist in my life, yet. (:
I tell loads of people that I like them.
I feel stupid before that, but then, after that..
I thought for awhile.
Why stupid?
It's good to let people know that they are loved.
I know I talk random stuffs each time. HEEH.
That's why my essays can't get high marks.
I'm not organized. HAH!
See, I told you, I'm talking random craps. LOL.
Anyways, back to the topic.
I don't know what am I thinking.
DAMN.
It's not possible that the person will like me.
I know, I know.
LIKE LIKE LIKE.

I was wrong again.
This time, I really think hard.
Pssh.
Bye bye [e]you and you.
I'm gonna move on.
Leave the good/ bad memories behind. (:
It's a good idea.


Hey, you.
Save me.
I know this sounds very stupid.
But still, save me.
Could you?
Please bring me far far away from all these.
I know you won't...
I can dream, can't I?
(...)




Love,
Jason

Screwed :(



WORDS DON'T HAVE POWER TO HURT YOU,
UNLESS THE PERSON WHO SAID THEM TO YOU MEANS A LOT TO U .






I'm sorry that I emo.
I just don't know what am I thinking right now.
Maybe I shall be alone for now.
I shall smile no matter what happen in school tomorrow.

Dear God,
What is happening?
Can I not live?
Please.
I feel so lost.
I feel so hurt.
I feel so bad.
I feel so useless.

You didn't reply my message.
I saw A posted on your wall.
[the above two is damn freaking lame.]
-disappointed.
-jealousy.. Perhaps?
Somehow, I don't understand.
I don't like you,
but I mind every word you say and everything you do.

My family have some minor problems.
It is still a problem.

God,
Can I not live?
I can't seem to know why am I living.
I rather not live.
No meaning at all.
Teenagers life eh?
I wanna grow up faster.
I think when I grow up,
I'll feel stupid for writing all these.
Heehs.

I know I shouldn't talk all these.
I really can't find a REAL person to talk to.
God only can see me weep in silence.
I can only talk to him, but, no response from God.
Parents? You think they understand?
You'll end up getting lecture by them.
Close-pals?..
I don't know why I don't wanna tell them...

Oii!
I will still smile!
Maybe a little of confuse me.
I wanna sleep.
Maybe I'm just tired.

Ok, I'll stay strong.




Love, 
Jason